look at all of these pictures of my face, these are some great pictures.
today i had dinner with kerry, i got there first and told the hostess i was meeting someone, wasn’t sure where we wanted to sit and that i was going to run to the bathroom. when kerry got there she asked him if he was “meeting a very pretty red-head”. kerry told me this because, he is in a serious relationship, and can’t compliment me himself but is aware of my vanity.
we talked about vanity, and wine and beer and jobs and school and sex and life. kerry frustrates me sometimes but he is pretty good for a man.
some pills i got prescribed today.
some makeup i liberated while i was waiting on all those damn pills.
right now i’m supposed to be taking
in the am
- my vitamin
- allegra
- ranitidine
- abilify
- celexa
before dinner
9:30
- loestrin 24
- ranitidine (again)
i am a 90 yr old woman
‘they may remember your compassion for the rest of their lives as a force greater than their depression.’
cholitalicious:
Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out your normal healthy ability to cope with bad days and bad news, and replaces it with an unrecognizable sludge that finds no pleasure, no delight, no point in anything outside of bed. You alienate your friends because you can’t comport yourself socially, you risk your job because you can’t concentrate, you live in moderate squalor because you have no energy to stand up, let alone take out the garbage. You become pathetic and you know it. And you have no capacity to stop the downward plunge. You have no perspective, no emotional reserves, no faith that it will get better. So you feel guilty and ashamed of your inability to deal with life like a regular human, which exacerbates the depression and the isolation. If you’ve never been depressed, thank your lucky stars and back off the folks who take a pill so they can make eye contact with the grocery store cashier. No one on earth would choose the nightmare of depression over an averagely turbulent normal life.
It’s not an incapacity to cope with day to day living in the modern world. It’s an incapacity to function. At all. If you and your loved ones have been spared, every blessing to you. If depression has taken root in you or your loved ones, every blessing to you, too. No one chooses it. No one deserves it. It runs in families, it ruins families. You cannot imagine what it takes to feign normalcy, to show up to work, to make a dentist appointment, to pay bills, to walk your dog, to return library books on time, to keep enough toilet paper on hand, when you are exerting most of your capacity on trying not to kill yourself. Depression is real. Just because you’ve never had it doesn’t make it imaginary.
Compassion is also real. And a depressed person may cling desperately to it until they are out of the woods and they may remember your compassion for the rest of their lives as a force greater than their depression. Have a heart. Judge not lest ye be judged.”
EVERYONE NEEDS TO READ THIS.
Depression is not a synonym for being sad or having a bad day/bad week.
It’s not a PHASE. It’s not a CHOICE. It’s not LAZINESS.
spread the word guys.
(via general-grievous)
this is REAL.
i was super fucking hung over and sick as dogs this morning and puked all lunch shift. but it was because i was out late watching hedwig. and it was worth it.
what a formative film.
today brock tricked me and came over and freaked out and showed me his fucking drunken self-harm and he’s so miserable and has no friends and has no family and has no life and like, dude, that’s the fucking problem. i am just as fucked up as you are, though you don’t believe it, and two fucked up kids cannot support each other. i can’t support you.
(Source: moonppmakeup)
i hate the snow but man i wanna be happy like these happy tabbies.
(Source: ubercuteness, via bitten-kitten)
sassmadness:
nothing that a hot shower and valium can’t fix.
truths by sydney.
amy as manic icon
(Source: amyjadetribute)
probs should go somewhere else if you don’t wanna look at gifs of xtina from lady marmalade.
just sayin’.
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