remembering/ we were never meant to survive

 

I wish I could know if this blog was still being stalked

maria told kae she was pregnant. maria and isabel say she’s never wrong, that kae just doesn’t know yet, but she must be because maria is never wrong. i said, i don’t believe in a lot anymore, but i believe in that mexican catholic with magic. kae sighed and said that she and her (mecian catholic) husband do want kids eventually.

later, kae, who’s a JW, asked me why i believed in mexican catholic witch magic and i didn’t even know what to say, like there are reasons sure, but also, it never occurred to me not to.

I just stared at my own eyeballs too long and got freaked out by the idea of having insides and in Summer and Smoke, Alma has a panic attack because of a medical diagram of the human abdomen and I’m just saying we shouldn’t let sixteen year old read Tennessee Williams because clearly it creates neurosis.

Healing
Balance
Protection

everyone is sick of hearing about it,

everyone is sick of you